A Post That Doesn't Mention Kitties.

Well, I'm done at UCA, and my final grades came out. Basically, they sucked. And my GPA went down a lot. Never have I felt like such a failure. I have never come so close to just...giving up. I've given up on my goal of becoming a dentist. There's no way I'd get accepted to dental school. And I'm not going to waste 3 more years of school, just to set myself up for failure. I'm one of those people that, if I know I can't do something, I most likely won't try. For me, it's success, or failure. There is no in between. And I've already ruined my chances of success in whatever future I may have had as a dentist. So I don't even see the point.

Everything pretty much came tumbling down on top of me. My GPA, my attendance at UCA, my hopes and dreams and goals for my future. Pretty much everything that was important to me. And now I'm buried in this mess. In all of this...this failure. And now all there is for me to do is to try to overcome this. Dig myself out of this mess. Set some new goals. Something else to work for. Find new motivation to drive me. That's harder than it sounds though. This has been the biggest dream I've had. I didn't care about anything else, other than becoming a dentist. And now that that's gone, I have to start all over. I always have a plan. I like to know where things are going, so I can always be prepared. And not knowing is really hard for me.

I have an idea though. Before my dream of being a dentist, I wanted to be a zoologist and study animals. That's the only other thing that I've actually seriously considered for my future. So now, I'm hoping I can rebuild that dream. I plan on going to Beebe, and studying biological sciences. I fully intend on kicking ass there, so that once I have my Associates degree from there, I can transfer to UF (go Gators), and get my Bachelors in either Zoology or Wildlife Ecology and Conservation. Maybe I could even have one as a major and one as a minor. After that I could go to work in a zoo, or find another career having to do with wildlife. And maybe, after a while, I could go to graduate school, so I could be qualified to do research. That would give me a chance to travel. Or maybe I could become a large animal vet.

Really, I don't know exactly what I'm going to do, which is weird for me. I guess I'll figure it out as I go. The important thing is that I don't give up, and I do something with my life. And, with the path I'm choosing to take now, maybe I'll be happier than if I stuck with the whole dentistry thing. I get along with animals much better than I get along with people. Maybe everything that is happening is just a test of my strength, or part of a bigger plan. I really don't know. But I don't plan on letting it get the best of me. I will make something of myself, and give my family a reason to be proud of me.

Summer, Kitties, and More Happy Things. :)

I have one final left on Thursday, and then I'm done with my freshman year of college. And then...It's time for summer. :)

Things I'm Going To Do This Summer:

• Re-read the whole Harry Potter series.
• Have one day/night dedicated to a Harry Potter movie marathon. Everything will be HP themed. Food, clothes, all that. Yay!
• Go running. A lot.
• Swim swim swim.
• Hang out with all my friends, namely Anna, Sam, Ron, DanPea, and Ryan.
• Play with my puppy every day so she gets the attention she deserves.
• Finish the main story lines of Oblivion and Skyrim. Both of which I have started, yet not finished.
• Figure out all this college stuff.
• Get a job. I need Moneyyyy.
• Do yoga and learn to manage my stress.
• Go to the doctor to find out why my feet turn purple.
• Get my first tattoo (hopefully).
• Finish remodeling our bathroom, which has been going on for like...the past 3 years.
• Maybe remodel my bedroom.
• Grow at least one flower. Everything I plant always seems to die. :(
• Have at least one night a week where I cook some sort of themed dinner and dessert for my family. I have so many ideas. Italian night, Greek night, finger food night. I can bake like nobody's business, but I want to expand my cooking skills. :)

I'm going to try to keep myself busy this summer instead of sleeping the whole time. I'm going to make this summer just as good as last summer. :)

Oh, by the way. I made an 81 on my biology final, which I'm super relieved about, because I didn't get to study for it very much.

And I found the funniest thing today. I think the pictures will say it all:

Kitty Wigs! I'm going to order some for my kitties soon. They'll be the cutest little kitties ever. I think the pink for Bonnie and the blue for Angel, yeah? Maybe some little sunglasses, too. Haha just kidding. Kitty wigs is a bit much for even ME. And that's saying a lot. :P (Although I have tried to take pictures of my kitties wearing sunglasses....they never cooperate. And yeahhh, I've tried multiple times.)

For anyone who actually does want to buy a wig for their kitty...here's the link. This is also where I got all the pictures from. http://www.kittywigs.com/

I love kitties. Kitties kitties kitties. They're so cute. :)

My friend Ron doesn't like kitties. How dare he. And I'm mentioning him because I know he'll be reading this post, because I told him about it just a little while ago, and I told him that he's in it. I can't believe I'm friends with someone who doesn't like kitties. Sucks to suck. :( Oh yeah...Ron is actually Anthony, who I have named Ron, because Ron is ACTUALLY Ronald, and then he has like...7 more names, and then a few numbers. So I just call him Ron. He loves that nickname. :)

And because I know Anna will also probably be reading this....YOU DON'T PUT CEREAL IN THE REFRIGERATOR. Haha I love you girl. And I'm so glad you're back, and we'll be spending the summer and next year together. It'll make things much more bearable. :)

I have to pack tomorrow. Like...everything. That'll be fun. Idk what I'm going to do with all my stuff once I get home. I don't think I have enough room in my bedroom for everything. But, I'll figure it out. OHMYGOSHEANBRINIEHKJDNKJFGKJWHERIUH4GSDF! I'm almost done with freshman year. I made it through, which that, in itself, is an accomplishment. :)

Well, it is now Wednesday, so Happy Wednesday. :)