Blahhh.

I had a decent day today. :)

This morning, I woke up at 5:30, then couldn't fall back asleep. Like...I was completely awake. I could have gotten up and ready for school right then. But I decided to try to go back to sleep, and right when I fell asleep...my alarm went off. It kinda sucked. Haha.

I realized yesterday that I'm going to be single for Valentine's day. But...I'm ok with that. I'll go buy myself flowers. :P

I'm ready for it to be summer. I want to be done with high school. Forever. I am dreading these next 3 months of sitting in class, doing nothing. I want to be able to stay up late every night and sleep in until noon every day. I'm ready for the tank top and short-shorts weather. I don't want to have to stress about homework and tests anymore. I want my biggest worry to be the stupid looking bikini tan lines I get every year from sitting at the pool for too long. I'm just sooo completely ready to graduate. But until then, I'm going to hope that we get TONS of snow days. I'm talking a blizzard. That just means less days that the seniors have to go to school.

My cat likes ice cream. And green beans. I'm going to miss her when I go to college. :(

Honestly...I don't have any deep or intriguing thoughts right now. Obviously. Haha. Nothing interesting to talk about. :/ I have psychology homework I need to do though. Booo. I guess I should go do that.

Random Thoughts

Last night I fell asleep listening to nature sounds. Thunderstorms and beach waves and all that. It was nice, and it really helped me fall asleep. :)
I had a bad dream though. I don't remember it, but I do know that I woke up crying. :(

My brother and I got in a fight today. He made me soooo mad. But...we're over it now. We're good. :P

I hate how my dad made a promise to me months ago to take me to waffle house, since he didn't go to a single one of my games, and he still hasn't kept his promise. I mean...is it that much to ask to take an hour out of your day to spend some time with your daughter? Especially when she is going to be leaving for college in a few months? Gah.

I really want frozen yogurt. With fruit on top. That sounds incredibly good right now. But...unfortunately, although I have money, I do not have a car...or a license. I'm lame. Haha.

Today I watched The Kite Runner. It was a really good movie. Kind of sad and disturbing at parts, though. Other than that...it was worth watching. If you don't mind watching a movie that is in English only 10% of the time. It's based in Afghanistan. It's kind of cool to watch movies based in other countries, because it allows you to see a little bit of what the culture is like in places other than the United States.

OH MY GOSH. So on Thursday, I was in Sam's truck with her, and they played new Ke$ha! It was pretty exciting. I have it on my iPod now. What can I say, I'm a sucker for the catchy beats and the mindless lyrics of every Ke$ha song. It's good dance music. :)

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Yesterday, I went to work out and swim laps at the pool with Sam and Logan. It was pretty intense. Once we got done, I felt pretty hardcore. :) I'm not as sore as I was last time. It might be because this time, we actually stretched like smart people before we started. :P

I really want to go to the ocean. Or Africa. Either one would be really cool. I've been to the ocean before, when I went to Florida as a kid, but I've never been to Africa. I want to see elephants and giraffes and kangaroos.

I took like a 4 hour nap today. I was so tired. I'm not sure why. I got enough sleep last night. I guess I was just really worn out.

I think that this summer, after graduation, I might go and spend a month in Kansas with my mom's side of the family. I have nothing else to do, so...why not? :)

Feel the Rain.

I have a tendency to try to keep people happy, even if it means that I suffer.
But for the first time in a while, I made a decision to do something for myself. Something to make myself happy. It means I have to give something up...something that means a whole lot to me. But it also means that a lot more doors will be opened.

Yesterday, I went swimming with Sam. I taught her how to do the freestyle stroke and the butterfly. We swam laps. Lots of laps. I didn't realize how much endurance and strength I have lost since I left swim team. I was kind of upset at myself, honestly. I couldn't even swim half the number of laps I used to be able to. And I got sore a whole lot faster. I'm still sore today. :( But I'm not gonna just quit. I'm going to build my muscles and my endurance up again.

Swimming helped cheer me up yesterday. I wasn't in the best mood when I went... but I guess it was just something about being back in the water that cheered me up. I was completely at peace. I didn't have a single worry on my mind. It was nice. :)

I really love lemonade. And music. And animals. I realized the other day that kangaroos are really cute. And I decided that I want one. I would name him Lars.

GAH.

I've had a bad day. Actually...I've had a bad weekend (except for All-Region, which was pretty freaking awesome). And it just keeps getting worse. I'm pretty sure I've lost something amazing that I just got back. And it kills me. I ALWAYS seem to mess up the things that mean the most to me. I wish I wasn't so...gah. I'm not even sure what to think right now. I'm so frustrated. I actually tried to sleep all day so I wouldn't have to think. Then...at 2, I couldn't fall back asleep. :(

Every night...I thank God for what he has given me. I have been so happy lately. And I thank him for this third chance that he gave me. And I pray that it will work out. And that I don't mess everything up. I mean...isn't the third time supposed to be a charm? Maybe not. Maybe everything good ends in heartache. It always has for me. Why would I be silly enough to think that maybe this time it wouldn't?

Good thing is...I'm so used to this that I'm kinda numb right now. When I go to bed I'll start feeling it though. I know how this goes. It SUCKS. I just wish I had my puppy to make me feel better. I'll be ok though. I always am.

Today was a good day. :)

Soo...I finished the 30 Day Challenge.
I guess now I just talk. :P

Well...this weekend we had All-Region tryouts. I was hoping for a tryout somewhere in the middle. But what number did I get? THREE. Out of 109. I was number three. That pretty much freaked me out, and I got soo nervous that I didn't do as well as I could have. Waiting for the results, I got so nervous that I got a headache. That has never happened to me. It was kinda weird. But when the results were posted, I found out that I made 1st band, 16th chair, and I qualify to tryout for All-State. THANK GOODNESS. But anyway... All-Region clinic is this Friday. I'm super pumped to get to hang out with all my friends and do what I love most...make music. :)

On another note, my 2 snow days were pretty awesome. I sat at home and played Fable 3, because I'm a geek. And now this geek is about to go play some Halo Reach with Daniel. :)



Snow <3



Last Days of the 30 Day Challenge That Actually Took 3 Months.

Day 28: Something That Stresses You Out
Ummm...School, of course.
The fact that I don't have my license. Or a permit.

Day 29: 3 Wishes
Wish 1: That I'll be successful.
Wish 2: That I'll be happy.
Wish 3: It's a secret.

Day 30: A Picture

My Brother, Papa, and Me. :)