Well then...I guess I'm supposed to be perfect. Idk. At least...I'm not allowed to doubt myself. And if I DO doubt myself and talk to someone about it...I'm just fishing for compliments. Awesome.
I can't help but doubt myself though. I've never been very confident in myself. Never. Not even when I was a litte kid. I'm still not. And lately, I've been questioning my ability to succeed in college and accomplish everything I've been dreaming of accomplishing for a while now. After the first half of this semester, I'm really not sure if I'll ever get accepted to dental school. And if I manage to make it through college and get my degree in biology, and finish the pre-dental track, and I DON'T get accepted into dental school...then what the hell did I even go through college for? Just to have lots of student loans to pay back, and a crappy job that doesn't make much money and that isn't what I want to do? Maybe I'm just not cut out for college. I just feel completely dumb. I mean...I know I'm somewhat smart. But I just FEEL dumb. And it sucks.
Yeah, I know applying for dental school is quite a while away. But it's really competitive. And honestly, there are a whole lot of people who are probably better suited to be a dentist than I am. Nobody would want to go to a dentist who just barely managed to keep her scholarships throughout college and who can't seem to pass a biology course to save her life.
Yet again, I'm being negative. I should really try to look on the bright side of things. Like...even if I don't get accepted to dental school, I could be a dental assistant. WOOHOO. That's JUST what I want to do.
Anyway. On a completely unrelated note, I am home for fall break. And my kitty is freaking adorable. I love her. :) I am going shopping this weekend. And to Boo at the Zoo, and I'm soooo excited! This break should be really good. Then back to school. Where I'm going to have no life anymore, whatsoever. Because I'm going to have to work my butt off to even pull a C in my biology class. Gah. Now back to the grade stuff. That's the LAST thing I want to think about right now. So I'm just going to bed.
"Goodnight, moon."
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