GAH.

I've had a bad day. Actually...I've had a bad weekend (except for All-Region, which was pretty freaking awesome). And it just keeps getting worse. I'm pretty sure I've lost something amazing that I just got back. And it kills me. I ALWAYS seem to mess up the things that mean the most to me. I wish I wasn't so...gah. I'm not even sure what to think right now. I'm so frustrated. I actually tried to sleep all day so I wouldn't have to think. Then...at 2, I couldn't fall back asleep. :(

Every night...I thank God for what he has given me. I have been so happy lately. And I thank him for this third chance that he gave me. And I pray that it will work out. And that I don't mess everything up. I mean...isn't the third time supposed to be a charm? Maybe not. Maybe everything good ends in heartache. It always has for me. Why would I be silly enough to think that maybe this time it wouldn't?

Good thing is...I'm so used to this that I'm kinda numb right now. When I go to bed I'll start feeling it though. I know how this goes. It SUCKS. I just wish I had my puppy to make me feel better. I'll be ok though. I always am.